WHAT HAPPENED?

I left here early 2019....I know y'all have lost all hopes in me.
I still had my app till February 2020....My phone got damaged...got another and my memory card where the app was,got missing mysteriously( so many hidden stories to that but be assured you will read about it someday).

I totally forgot how much I could write my pains, joys,fears,hopes,future...I totally forgot writing makes me happy.Instead,I was chasing a shadow.
The first 3 months of 2020 was hell for me.
Every of my thought was how to make another happy,I get out of bed forgetting myself and catering for another.
Every of my steps was how to make things right not for myself but for another...I obviously never saw me as being enough for me.
I was looking into another mirror to see myself,I broke my mirror,I got it shattered,I trashed my life,I wasn't living for myself.
I was living in a cubicle,a circle.I was stagnant while I thought I was moving.
I lost my inner peace but I didn't know...I left the visual world,I left the reality of life,I left the hopes life could give me.
I was broken but no one knew,I cried silently so no one could hear and sometimes,I cried so loud that only me could hear my cry.
I lived in fear,I was a queen who lived like a slave....
The ones I trusted,saw to the end of me...the ones I looked up to acted like they never knew me.
I was naked,worn out, bartered, crushed but you know what....I wasn't destroyed.
I am still living.

I'm sorry I'm telling you all of these, but there's no way I could come back here after leaving for so long without letting you have an insight why I left without looking back.

I'm happy I found myself.
I'm happy I will be guinely happy.
I'm happy I was given another chance to live.
I'm happy to have learnt.

HEY YOU!

Never you lay down your life for any one to live....Jesus Christ already did and that's just enough.
Live for yourself.
I repeat live for yourself.
Be your own peace.
Never you look for your happiness in the face of another.
Leave when your love isn't reciprocated.
Flee from manipulators,they are one of the dangerous people to live with.
Never forget the place of PRAYER!

My name is Miss Oluwakemisola Betiku.
The first daughter of her father.
The eldest of them all.
I already shed my old wings...
I am EAGLE.

Good Morning!

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